Earlier today, I laid down for a nap. In that subtle place between awareness and unconsciousness I saw the conventional face of the devil appear before my eyes. Underneath the face was the word DEVIL. The D vanished and the word EVIL remained. Then the letters rearranged to spell LIVE. I saw the number nine, the knowing began, and I saw life end and began again, and the knowing was experienced throughout the next life. The number 11, life began again, and the knowing was stronger and there was a choice to recognize it or to ignore it. It didn't matter either way, because after that it was over. Then I heard myself complaining that everyone seems to want more than I can give, and I felt all the emotions I felt when I think that. Then I was moving through space, surrounded by stars and I thought about how I constantly ask the universe for more and more, even when my life is just fine the way it is.
I mulled this over for a while feeling remorseful and ungrateful before I fell asleep. I thought about it for the remainder of the day. I didn't remember everything immediately when I woke up. I did a tarot reading and the first card I pulled was The Devil and it all came back to me. At the conclusion of my reading an imaginary light bulb shined over my head. I thought, people treat you the way you treat yourself. They are a reflection of your perception of yourself. I forgot to reverse it back on myself: I want more than I can give... really?
I'll be examining that for the rest of the night. I'll elaborate more on The Devil and the life numbers after further consideration.
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